false melody

whether right
or wrong
i try to write
from the heart
neither here
nor there
i pour it out
in scribbles
upon pages
to let the
demons out
and the disease
that keeps me
writing these
is calling
after me
to feed
its needs
from the
hand
to the
mouth
and down
to the
heart
i swallow hard
and fall apart
whether right
or wrong
i try to write
from the dark